Sunday, June 1, 2008,12:32 AM
After all that had happened, I finally realized what was wrong. He said “I don’t feel that you are enjoying your driving lessons, unlike Jocelyn who I can really see she is enjoying herself”. Ya this statement just hit me on the inside. Questions like why and I going through all this and finding it so hard was simply my attitude and mindset was not right from the beginning.
All I could think of was I am tired after the whole week of work. I need more rest. I can’t focus. I want to do better than the others. Time after time stress was all I am giving myself and yes convinced myself that I was still afraid of moving vehicles. The feeling of not able to control the vehicle really freaks me out.
However after hearing the word yesterday, I have decided to change my thinking and really leaning on Him. (It had been really hard for some reasons and I was crying out to Him.) This night, I prayed myself to sleep, seeking peace and rest in His presence.
I woke up in the morning in a cheerful and positive way. If you ask me what I did oh well, I simply smiled to myself, telling myself everything is possible with God and prayed for His strength and guidance. Another thing was I kind of practice how am I going to greet the uncle later. It was because a smile can brightens someone’s day especially in the morning and as a Christian I was supposes to bring joy to the people around me. Well I just hope it is still not too late for me to realize how important and how it can really make a different in someone’s life.
HURRAY after making sure my mood and emotions are in good condition, I went down prepared how my driving lesson. :)
I greeted the uncle as how I practiced it and everything went kind of smoothly. I did not panic easily as I left my fears with the Lord. I made minimal mistake as compared to the previous lessons and though the uncle do not know how to praise people, I knew I was progressing by the number of time I was ‘scolded’ wahaha.
The whole time was enjoyable and that’s the word ENJOYABLE. It was a wonderful feeling or rather experience as learning how to drive is no longer a chore but something I enjoy doing it and I know the money I am paying for is for something of value. (I used to have heartaches when I pay.)
This day, I went home with a smile and the joy I experience could be expressed by words but the smile of mine from ear to ear even my elder brother find me a bit crazy haha as I was kinda jumping, hopping around wahaha how silly I am.
Through all this that had happen, I REALLY NEED TO GIVE A BIG THANK YOU TO THE LORD and the word given that ENLIGHTENED me.
I WILL PRAISE THE LORD ALL MY DAYS!
With Love, ♥
★ Annabelle ★
★ Annabelle ★